EXCITEMENT AAAAAAAAAAH!

wannadanta4sho: KALEB!
wannadanta4sho: HELLO!
wannadanta4sho: gdwyebfjcnudsifhnewiun IM SO EXCITED FOR TONIGHT
wannadanta4sho: WAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUH
wannadanta4sho: ive been cleaning all day
wannadanta4sho: let me tell you about it
wannadanta4sho: since youre not responding
wannadanta4sho: i will tell you anyway, no bother
wannadanta4sho: so i was supposed to clean my room today
wannadanta4sho: and low and behold, i end up cleaning, but i clean everything BUT my room
wannadanta4sho: i clean the den
wannadanta4sho: the kicthen
wannadanta4sho: the downstairs bathroom
wannadanta4sho: the upstaird bathroom
wannadanta4sho: the extra bedroom
wannadanta4sho: even my PARENTS bedroom
wannadanta4sho: i made their bed, folded their clothes, ORGANIZED THEIR SHOES
wannadanta4sho: did their laundry
wannadanta4sho: did MY laundry
wannadanta4sho: took a shower
wannadanta4sho: painted my nails
wannadanta4sho: and now im taking a break and
wannadanta4sho: then
wannadanta4sho: im gonna go eat dinner with my madre
wannadanta4sho: and then hannahs coming over at SEVEN
wannadanta4sho: and were gonna hang out until we go to jodys LATER
wannadanta4sho: where I will get to see YOU
wannadanta4sho: WHOOOOOOHOOOOOO
wannadanta4sho: I AM SO EXCITED
wannadanta4sho: I CANNOT CONTAIN MYSELF
wannadanta4sho: KALEB THIS IS RIDICULOUS!!!

I have far too much energy. Tonight is going to be soooo good!

xoxo DannDann

Eighty thousand is an understatement. There are too many thoughts streaming through my head, none of which I can grab a hold of. What is this? What is any of this? What does it mean? I don't know. I keep turning a corner to find a street full of potholes and cardboard boxes in my way. When I get to the end of the block and go inside for safety, it's a place I can't trust. "That's what life is - a series of rooms. And the people you get stuck in those rooms with makes up who you are." No one ever distinguished which rooms were safe, no one ever distinguished which rooms were comfortable or awkward or empty or quiet or not the rooms you wanted.

I find myself to be overwhelmed on a daily basis with all of the things I am concerned with. I try to put them aside and forget about it. I surround myself with others to get these things off of my mind, and in the end, those things are still there. I can't get away from them. Even when I deal with them, they're still there. I second guess everything and I hate that, absolutely hate that. I almost don't know what I want anymore. And it's not even about not knowing what I want, it's about not knowing if I can have the things I want. Sometimes I just want to give up. Sometimes I just want to run. Sometimes I just want to scream. Sometimes I just want the little things that used to make me happy to return. Sometimes I just want to know how I feel about people without questioning it. Sometimes I just want you to show me who you are.

xoxo DannDann

Revolution

I'm ready to make a difference. I want to show you something you will never forget. I want to be that memory that you will always have, that person you will always remember. I want to die knowing that something was different because I was involved. I want to change things and make them better. I want to paint the town red. I want to pretty the world. I don't know what my action will be, what my change will be, what effect I will have on people, how people will remember me - I don't know, but I know I want to have one. I want to be the reason something changes. I want to make people think. I want to make a statement. I want to lead a movement. I want to be in charge. I want to start a revolution.

Dream big, Dani.

And that's exactly what I plan to do.

xoxo DannDann

Mewwi Cweezmaaaz Beeches

Waaaalaalaalaalaaaaaaah! It's Christmas!

Waaaalaalaalaalaaaaaaah! I GOT A CAMERA!

:D

Tick tick tick

It goes on. It all goes on whether you're there or not. Seconds still fly. Money is still exchanged. People still have fun. It all goes on.

Everyone is just a second in a minute, a second in an hour, a second in a day, a second in a week, a second in a month, a second in year. Everyone is a second. No wonder fish feel so small...there are so many of them. How does each second know it's relevant? If that second weren't there, there's another one before it and another after it. Time keeps going with an endless amount of seconds. An endless amount of ticks.

Every question is not answered. There is another question before it, another after. Do they all matter? Do all the seconds matter? Who sits and watches the time go by, who notices the difference in each minute, who wishes time stood still, who lets it fly by? That second that just passed and that one and that one and that one, did you notice it, did you appreciate it?

Time is always there, always in front of you, but no one sits there and appreciates all that makes it up. Even the man who puts together a watch, after a while it's just putting wheels together and making sure the hands tick perfectly, but not the appreciation of the seconds individually. Not the seconds on the watch, not the seconds on the clock, not the seconds of that man's life - they all become insignificant. They all become time. And time always goes on.

He got that phone call.

I didn't.

xoxo DannDann

Clarity

Disappointment (n.) - The act of disappointing, or the state of being disappointed; defeat or failure of expectation or hope; miscarriage of design or plan; frustration.

Effort (n.) - earnest and conscientious activity intended to do or accomplish something; use of physical or mental energy; hard work; notable achievement; a series of actions advancing a principle or tending toward a particular end

"Effort is only effort when it begins to hurt." [Ortega y Gasset, 1949]

Fix (v.) - restore by replacing a part or putting together what is torn or broken; make fixed, stable or stationary; make ready or suitable or equip in advance for a particular purpose.

Problem (n.) - any question or matter involving doubt, uncertainty, or difficulty; a question to be considered, solved, or answered; a situation, matter, or person that presents perplexity or difficulty; a misgiving, objection, or complaint.

Responsible (adj.) - answerable or accountable, as for something within one's power, control, or management; involving accountability or responsibility; chargeable with being the author, cause, or occasion of something; having a capacity for moral decisions and therefore accountable; capable of rational thought or action; reliable or dependable


Make an effort to take responsibility and fix the problem that dissapointed me.

xoxo DannDann

Buckle up

I'm ready for this break. It will determine a lot of things. It's a "make or break" for a lot of people, that's how I see it. Some things are already showing. Lots of things are being made and lots of things are being broken. And it's only begun.

I'm very eager to move on without the distractions of school for a little bit. I'm ready to find out what is important to me again. I had no idea that so many ridiculously big and important changes had happened in the past four months. Bottom line is that we all move on, whether or not it's with each other. Whether or not I have been there or you have been there or all of us have been there, we have all moved on. It's up to each and every one of us who stays close to who. We can control our relationships, we just have to make sure that we actually will control them since we can.

I have realized lately how often I make excuses. I have realized even more how much other people make excuses. I usually, for the most part, can justify my actions. I know that I cannot say the same for the majority of the people I am friends with. I hope people start taking responsibility and realize that they won't be the only people affected by their choices and actions.

So I don't know what this next month will mean for all of you, but I'm pretty sure it's going to mean something to a lot of people, whether or not that something is the same thing as mine or yours. These next few weeks will tell us a lot about each other. It's up to you as to what it tells us about you.

xoxo DannDann